why? why? why? why is he so god damn annoying? what did i do to deserve such an annoying father? he is soooo frustrating just when I think hes being normal he does his usual 360 and slap bang im thrown right back into the circle of annoyingness! honestly, the guy needs a life, big time! i mean he has to but into everything, every single bloody thing and I just feel like saying BUGGER OFF!!!!! AAAAAAAA. especially when it comes to domestic issues and inviting people over which by the way i am so frekkin tired of. ive just about had enough of setting the house straight, cooking and then cleaning after the what seems like a never ending line of dirty, extremeley greasy dishes. we just had a dinner party recently and now we’re having another one 7 days later. im just going to say one word EXTRAVAGANCE people EXTRAVAGANCE, somehow muslim people forget that word but remember everything else such as hijab! hijab and more hijab! i mean is it soooooo extremely necessary to have a dinner party just because my sister is graduating? God forbid we go out as a family to a nice restaraunt place to celebrate it. no thats too difficult in my house. the whole time my dads worried about the cost and on the way there and back my eldest keeps on reminding us nay drilling into us that she is going to ‘treat’ us at Miss Mauds or Sizzler (even after the fact that weve told her about a bazillion times that there is hardly anything halal at sizzler except for potato salad). but no we must invite people and feed them. we must. we must. it is our duty. it is such a pain. and its not as though my dad can just let us ‘females’ do what we want he HAS to, HAS to put his input in and approve or disapprove of our plans and what we’re going to make and he HAS to make stupid lame brained suggestions which only seem sensible to him. honestly i just wish he would get a life. and he HAS to insist upon me making something, and he HAS to act like Ive commited one of the gravest sins when I say that Im sick of cooking. he cant just deal with it, he HAS to get in a poopy about it, its not him if he doesnt. im so sick of it! im sick of living in this stupid house doing the same bloody thing over and over again and living this mundane existence in which not even going to uni is a release from all the crappy boringness. IM SICK OF IT!!!! i know i sound like a really ungrateful bitch right now, i dont mean to be but you know how it is….

oh and i saw Insight last night on SBS, and I just wish they would bring David Hicks back home because I truly believe he is innocent, and even if he isnt he should atleast get a chance at proving his innocence. i was just thinking that if he gets out of there with even stronger iman he must be one of those people Allah swt has tested with a great trial, because i mean come on 5 years in Gitmo has to be like one of the greatest tests of faith on the planet and if he passes one can only imagine his reward. i pray that he is one of the dwellers of the highest paradise, like where the companions of the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) are, inshallah, Ameen.